The life of an self-employed artist enduring late stage capitalism is such a weird thing to process
You're always ✨on✨ and, with each apps flying circus of algorithmic hoops to jump through, it feels like you're investing more and more energy for dwindling returns
I don't mean sales, though paying the bills is great and all
I've always been the friend who Listens and engages occasionally but authentically, and I remember an internet where that was valued
That noise erodes the psyche as water shifts the soil
slowly reshaping
quite possibly permanently altering
often destroying
And feeling as though I'm a part of that
by means of necessity in order to survive
is a very strange thing to process and try to live with.
I am grateful for this life and chance
But
To spend your time making noise
when all you want from this life is to contribute
enhance
bring bits of joy into this life for others
@SJohnRoss I'm not ignoring this comment, just taking time to consider the depth of what you're feeling and experiencing. You're certainly not alone in it.