RiikkaTheIcePrincess

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 3 days ago

I wonder what's happening to munitions markets and makers whilst we're all watching drones (sometimes down to the sort of cheap shit one can find at Wal-Mart for $15 or whatever) be as effective as very expensive missiles and bombs and whatnot 🤔

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 8 days ago

Aww, some people have the sweetest parents :3

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 11 days ago

Mlem :3

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 12 days ago

Daaamn, TOW blew the whole top off' that poor thing. Didn't know they were that badass.

I'll smile extra for you. I hope you can find something here that will lift your spirits. Maybe a whole-ass ammo depot becoming a crater or something? :3

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 13 days ago

Yarr, I guess :3

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 16 days ago

Ah, a "designated free speech zone!" Weird, it's cool when they do it 🤔

Yeah, really going for the low-hanging fruit of pointing out that the right is violently dishonest. (Also no, it's not actually cool. It's fucked and gross. Just clarifying in case somecritter thought I was being non-sarcastic there 😅 )

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 16 days ago

"No bullying!" students disagree with genocide "Police, police! Get those fuckin' nerds! We've got lockers you can stuff them into if you want!"

'Course, "anti-bullying campaigns" seem to have a tendency some places to either have some serious cracks or actually make things worse at least some of the time. Same with other "student protection" initiatives, some schools just mysteeeriously have interestingly high rates of traumatized students going out compared to coming in.

(In case it's unclear, I'm complaining about shit schools letting students get attacked in various ways but trying to pretend they're not just letting it happen or quietly encouraging it. In the US at least, the "education system" being gross or outright vile does not stop at/after high school: it's top to bottom bullshit same as what at this point feels like every other "system" around here)

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 18 days ago

I'm not free!

I demand a nice cage or at least collar, and regular pettings, and snacks. ... Yeah that's pretty much it. Just pick me up and cart me off and keep me 😅 :3 🥺

... Yeah that's not the point of the OP but hey whatever mew meep squeek et cetera, dammit!

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 18 days ago

But I heard that all cops are benevolent!

🤔 Wait no, that's not right. Anyway I'm sure it's somehow not their fault. (Edit: nor the school's fault for calling the fucking cops)

https://yewtu.be/watch?v=7JkrJUAg8aI

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 18 days ago

Ahhhh... where are you gonna drive to, that Bushmaster will eat your entire lunch. Dunno whether the smart ones already ran or that one was doing the "I'll draw their attention!" thing.

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 19 days ago

You'd think as we approach fully automated luxury (for the wealthy only) hetero land capitalism that people would kinda start getting ideas about maybe not everything should be property of the richest trash around 🤔 I would, anyway. Apparently I'd think wrong and people are so determined to serve they'll blame me for existing before they'll ever blame whoever fired them for a machine, or whoever voted against UBI, or whoever decided that food and shelter should cost money even if there aren't any jobs because the machines handle everything. Or just... y'know, anything that makes any sense?

rant rant ramble rant Can we please get Option 2 now. Grr.

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 20 days ago

That bolded bit reminds me of my life lately. Tons of scary stories and "not sugar coating" things just made me wake up several nights having some kinda panic attacks. Somecritter finally said something that made me feel like I wasn't just thrown a map and told to find a life in it, like I had someone who was going to help me make sure my life's not over now... and I suddenly was significantly more able to act for days. Nothing even came of it, I just got a little bit of hope instead of only more crap to worry about, or more crap to dig through, or more things I need to do but can't. Can't really overcome hopelessness by piling misery atop it.

Turns out an ounce of hope beats a ton of despair, at least for getting me moving. Maybe that Peter critter has some points 😅

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 21 days ago

I kinda want there to be a super-weed that can tear up an entire parking lot in under a week 🤔 Also this thing should appear in every parking lot simultaneously and be immune to any herbicide that doesn't also melt the buildings next to where it's used.

... I'm growing a special new distaste for cars lately. I still need buses, so I guess roads can stay <.< For now >:O

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 21 days ago

Whose tires? My licence expired before I fled up here :3

Unfortunately, buses also tend to use tires. And roads. Maybe some melty mould would work, though! Maybe if it somehow targets cars or things used only/mainly by cars, or just use it later when places get walkabler as a response to the damn cars being rendered ineffective. Oh, and maybe light rail can be a bigger thing! Dunno how good that would be but fuck cars!

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 21 days ago

Still doomed 🙃 Stressing over another talk with my host, who is... kinda difficult, honestly. I can't tell what's available to me (in any context) nor what I'm even supposed to be able to accomplish in any amount of time but I'm supposed to "advocate for myself" even knowing there's someone who needs this room so like... what the fuck am I supposed to do, beg to stay and somecritter who's in the same situation I was gets beaten or shot by their father but I get another week of accomplishing fuck-all because I need six sorts of support I'm never gonna get but what I get is a week at a time and expectations to just get my shit together and get a job without even somewhere to stay while I work?

So I went from hopeless and in danger to hopeless and about to be in danger somewhere else. Worst part is, my host has some of the same major issues that I do, so every time we talk I feel like there's some understanding there, or understanding to be had. She even recognizes it as an accomplishment for me to manage to get out and take the ten-minute bus ride to Burger King. Does not seem to recognize how screwed I am, how much of an impossible ask it is to just dump a pile of "resources" on me and think I'm gonna call them all, etc.

...I said I wasn't gonna wall-of-text you lot <.<; Sorries! Please pretend it's just a little nibble of whine 😓

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 21 days ago

As a thirty-four-year-old currently "living" in somebody's closet, yes please this is clearly meant for me 🥺 👐

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 21 days ago

Imean, I do need another closet to go to :P You look like you might be German, though, and I don't have a passport 🤔 🤷 So I guess you're safe 😅

lurks, mopes around in circles

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 21 days ago

And now I'm crying v.v Thanks, though.

Maybe there's a cat lady for trans critters somewhere who will rescue me :-\ ... Kinda need her to show up like, today, though. If anycritter's got her number or has her friended on Discord or Matrix or something... 😅 😞

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 21 days ago

...Yes??? Yes. I'm gonna fuckin' squee at you :P

Realistically, we should just room with each other

Kinda seems like there should be a place for arranging that 🤔 I think there's one on Facebook (ewww!??) and also I guess* it's kinda dangerous because of garbo hunams and possibly also because some of us are really incompetent (😅!) buuuut... Idunno. Shouldn't be so hard to be not alone, shouldn't be so hard to be not out on the street or in a hotel for a tiny stay just magically becoming totally okay** or something else that's worse than cuddle piles and collaboration (which, now that I think about it, may be everything 🤔)

* I've had really good luck with meeting critters off' the Internet 😅 And critters their mothers contacted through the Internet. And critters other Internet-critters contacted through the Internet 😹 You'd think I'd have bumped into at least a kidney thief or some asshat who wants to tell me I'm going to be punished for eternity for not living their way or something by now but instead people just hug me and buy me food 🤔 🤷 If I could feel feelings I'd probably like that 🙃

** I'm a little sour over some of the apparent expectations lately <.< [rant omitted]

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 20 days ago

😹 🫂

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 22 days ago

(Agreeing, not arguing)
When something goes for so long with no amount of effort ever changing the thing beyond basically a coat of paint... Yeah, what it's doing is clearly the point. A glitch is a glitch but if it's still killing people next week, next month, next year... that's obviously a feature.

Kinda ridiculous to expect people to be mandatorily opted-into a system meant to grind them up then be like "Oh don't worry, it's just in beta and you can submit a bug report if it kills you or something." Yeah sure, it'll be "fixed" any decade now. Just gotta keep paying no matter what doesn't change and eventually something will change!

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 28 days ago

I'm doomed 🙃 But like, seriously. If anycritter wants a broken, janky thirty-something trans critter as a rescue or a pet, am available ö/ Not looking to pollute another comm with my mess so I'll not post one of my signature walls-of-text this time <.< >.>

In other news, Sour Strips are pretty tasty. Uhm, I thought I was gonna see a bus fight a night or two ago. Buses here are kinda nice generally but sometimes the driver has to call some people out before there's a beatdown on the bus :-\ Haven't had to deal with any smokers on the buses, so that's nice. Can't say that about the light rail :| New (to me) city funs 😵‍💫

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 28 days ago

I had a week or two, then a place I'd hoped was at least semi-stable after that. Well, the place I was expecting to be my serious starting-point totally fell through the day before, so since this is week 4 of "a week or two" and my time's up and I've got maybe one hope for somewhere to go I'm getting stressed and scrambly again.

(Yes, I'm that broken that I can't turn a month into a life. I actually don't know how I was supposed to have managed it and no one's willing to tell me so I'm just kinda lost now. Other than being able to ride a bus. I can get to Knollwood and back. Yay. Got cut off from phone Internet access so not betting I'll be able to get to or from anywhere else, but that's kinda my big success dealing with my mental and life issues. Yay me. 🫠)

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 28 days ago

Not to press you but as a general clarification, I can (probably; TSA may eat me because of my expired license 😅) fly again if it'll get me a chance I can actually use. Anxing just thinking about trying to manage that but whatever, right? 😅 A hope's a hope, reason and reality can just stay out of it.

There is a program that will cut like $10 off of a landline bill and another that I think does $9 off of an Internet connection or bundle including that (which I believe is the one that can apply to cell service). Looks like that could get me down to like $40 per month 😅 Alternatives include services like TextNow, which will mail me a SIM for like $5 that I can use to provide them with all of my communications and in exchange I get ads and some level of service, assuming they don't ban me for no reason (which is apparently a thing they do? Hmm.)

[Rantyramble] Everything feels like a huge mess when one's life (well, what I had of one anyway) just gets spontaneously knocked over. Like, even phone service maybe sounds simple but there's more to it just because of the mess I'm in. Waiting for mail may be a no-go if I have to go somewhere else before it arrives. Alternatively, I could "just" go to a carrier's shop and sign up for $50+ (skipping the shenans I may have to go through to get the $9 off or whatever) but that requires that I find one (easy enough, GMaps that up) and get to it (could be hours on multiple buses and/or trains with transfers and no ability to track any of it because of my lack of connectivity) and hope my phone's not locked up to the biofam account they're using to screw me over or some other kinda crap I'll have to/be unable to deal with. Bonus points for readers who remember that I've got nasty anxiety problems and can barely make a phone call without a days-long struggle and so even the one little issue may be impossible to resolve right now 🙃

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 26 days ago

Maybe you could use some magic to help that happen, Enchanter! :P

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 1 month ago

On one hand, you have to appreciate a little win here or there. Not often they see consequences.

In the other hand, you should probably have a beer or a nice, refreshing glass of fruit juice or something. Whatever you like, you know? Treat yourself, it's a special occasion!

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 1 month ago

2012 legislation in England and Wales that made squatting in a residential building a criminal offence

[Very sarcasm] Of course, because residential buildings are important to keep clear of anyone trying to live in them! Sitting on them whilst people die in the streets, now that's just good sense.

Bleh.

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 1 month ago

Owch at some of the votes and reactions around here. Welcome to c/CapitalismIsGreatActually I guess 🤷 Gross to see this negative while "Waaah, crime is baaaddd!!" is positive.

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 1 month ago

Oh joy, more cramming "AI" into absolutely every damn thing. Maybe we can get some kinda scalable AI blockchain synergy going on so we can buzz whilst we buzz.

Good thing I use Sprint! ... Wait, crap. Oh well, I need to get my own carrier/account anyway. Which one's actually good? (... Ha ha ha!)

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 1 month ago

Shenmue! :D

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 1 month ago

Signed up for stress, got stress 🤷 Does exactly what it says on the tin 😅

But seriously this world's fucked :| :(

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 1 month ago

Ohey, familiar. Lately getting that particular bit of equivocation from my own abusive "family" who've been threatening everything from having me jailed to having me "institutionalized," calling the cops on me to evict me without notice, physical intimidation... Turns out "no" is a grievous offense to such people. The whole "children as property" thing is vile, absurd that some clearly think giving birth yields the ultimate entitlement, to an entire person and their life. I wonder if not getting diagnosed is a 'blessing in disguise' :| Tried for a decade or two to tell BioMom I thought I was 'on the spectrum' but always just got bullied out of ever seeing a doc. "There is NOTHING wrong with you!!" she'd say, every time. So now I'm a wreck 'cause two people screwed and entitled themselves to getting by with this crap (and more besides). I hope that person manages better.

...Could really use help escaping before I become a data point, actually :-\

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 1 month ago

I'm 34, so part of the problem getting help is that I'm old enough I'm supposed to "have my shit together" but... problems. So I'm too young for "later life" help and too old for "youth" help. I'm also trans and (likely) AuADHD and have a physically sickening fear of thresholds (phone calls, leaving), can barely stand confrontations (and even that's thanks to meds they're not gonna be letting me get, despite their lies about worrying about my health) and stuck in Oklahoma, so difficulties everywhere. As for blockers to getting out:

1. I'm actively afraid to unlock my room's door, ever. BioDad is verbally abusive and acts like he's going to beat me every time he thinks he can get by with it. I'm terrified of even being seen any more. I eat/drink/bathe rarely and only when I'm quite sure they're both asleep or out of the house.
2. I'm overwhelmed trying to figure out what to even do. Temporary housing seems unavailable outside of getting a hotel room, and that won't last long. As long as it does last, it's quickly burning up my ability to do anything more permanent. Do I try to find a cheap, shit apartment or roommate arrangement here? Do I move to one of a dozen or so bluer, safer states? Places like MN Transplant offer lots of resources that may help but a list of resources isn't a plan, it's a pile of stuff I don't even know whether to focus on let alone have a clear idea what to do with.

I've been given only a week to get out. This is better than their original idea, which was to call the cops on me to kill me, throw me into jail, "institutionalize" me, or at least throw me directly out with nothing, but not as good as the thirty days' notice required by law. I guess the cop with the Punisher tat didn't mention that when he was explaining that they can't just have the cops throw me out to die miles from the nearest town. Anyway, I feel backed into a corner and it's hard to even think. I have some credit, and some money in the (joint-ownership!) bank that I'm trying to get into my PayPal (not great, but it's what I have) account, but that transfer takes time and every day I delay wrecks my mental state a bit more. If I manage to get myself a hotel room, every day also burns a bunch of money. So I spend each day totally screwed up struggling to survive everyone in the house including myself, and I'm not even sure I can. I'm not even sure I should. I'm even afraid of getting myself into a position where "living" is the only option.

Idunno if it's normal, or being a pampered ass, or some kinda autism thing but hard to imagine getting out of here unless one of:

1. I've got a clear idea that I can move forward, and how. Someone to cling to, at least. Maybe a solid idea of where I can or should go, where I can get enough income to survive and a reasonably safe place to live. I feel horribly lost and alone and I'd rather be poor with someone good than... I don't even know. Thrash about desperately hoping a life appears?
2. Someone brings a "me-sized" bag.

[rant?] Also I'm not even sure these monsters want me gone. I think they want me to cry and beg for them to let me stay. Why else take my car keys? Why call the cops to evict me instantly, knowing (she managed an apartment place!) how the eviction process actually works? She threw me out once before and before I was even gone she was pulling her usual (life-long) exploiting-my-mental-issues BS trying to get me to stay, then just begging me to stay. When I failed to grow a life and ended up back here, she swore she'd never throw me out again. ... Yeah sure, anyway I'm not sure whether she specifically wants me dead or not but I'm afraid neither one is actually willing to let me leave. He'll do whatever she says and the worst he thinks he can get by with other than that. [/rant]

tl;dr: My mental state and status are fucked and getting fuckeder and I guess I need hand-holding 🤷 I'm afraid to even leave my room and feel like I've got only one shot but there's no clear shot to take so I'm lost and confused and overwhelmed and afraid of everything, and that's when I'm not just curled up crying and thinking of dying.

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 1 month ago

Localish-frond! 🪴 (It's like a friend but also a pretty, leafy fern-part! Also nearish-by!)

I hope things improve for you too. Maybe we can even escape together! ... Or just daydream about it, I guess. Not likely hell-world fate's gonna let either of us be happy, let alone both <.< :-\ 🤷 mumbles other things

Thanks for saying a thing, though. Sometimes wordsing is hard or just frustrating or things.

RiikkaTheIcePrincess OP , 2 months ago

Too late, but thanks. They didn't say anything about social workers (dunno if we even have those or shelters of any non-storm kind out here) but did recognize this as my home and point out the bioparents have to go through the eviction process to throw me out. I can't just walk out and go anywhere because I'm in the middle of nowhere and have no driver's licence.

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 2 months ago

😞 🧑‍🌾

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 2 months ago

I hear people are trying to get "AIs" to make games. I hope they're all trained on this 😈

(That's what I thought of, reading "technological future of crap." The article itself seems to just be a typical review for that game, which is indeed among the hottest of garbages.)

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 2 months ago

Transphobic trash reeks of garbage and bigotry! Trying to keep herself "relevant" to the hatefool trash who follow her, I guess.

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 2 months ago

Now, is failing to replace the TP worse than putting it in an up-from-under configuration or just as bad?

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 2 months ago

What's "holier" than killing kids for being born wrong?

Fucking gross.

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 2 months ago

😬 What a fucked-up book.

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 2 months ago

But it iiiisssss 😭

(I do actually use Arch, by the way 🤣)

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 2 months ago

Throwing together a service, telling no one, then promptly cancelling it (often because no one used it) is truly the Googlest thing.

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 2 months ago

I feel compelled to call out a spot they missed, specifically........ https://www.sleeplessdomain.com/comic/chapter-9-page-17
TRANS MAGICAL GIRLS >:3

Imean, we're all magical and very cute but it's kinda cool when it's officially a thing in a thing I like? ;P

RiikkaTheIcePrincess , 2 months ago

Hey, what's that song?