:bear_love: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos ๐ and #NeuroSpicy ๐ถ friends :neuro:
The week is halfway through, well almost... It's been a weird week so far, and I'm trying to keep some "normal" in it, so I don't go cray-cray all the way... I'm weird enough as it is now...
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I've gotten the keys on Monday afternoon. Started the first work on Tuesday. Had a decent work day on Wednesday... Yay for that!
But my body and brain are struggling. I have pain kikkers to help with the body issues. They don't take it all off, but they do take away the sharpest edges.
Normally, with my meds and melatonin, I need about 15/30 minutes with my eReader to fall asleep. But the last two nights, my brain was so stressed, that it took me over an hour! And, of course the alarm will go off in time again, as Arwen does need her walkies and food...
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So less sleep, more stress (walls with more work, floors more expensive and the rental coop making a financial mess....), more discomfort/pain.
I don't like complaining. I know it won't change anything. But I just wish for a few small things... Some better weather. Better sleep. Less pain.
I can deal with the work. I can (hopefully) sort out the payments with the rental coop (their errors, definitely not mine! Hopefully my contact will see the mail today and will sort it out for me... ๐ค๐ป). I can overcome the extra costs (well, I did say that it shocked my dad a lot and I'd need to pay them with the inheritance ๐).
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It's all fine! Haha!
But all the rain and cold aren't helping. Less sleep isn't helping... OK, the worries/stress don't help either...
I'm getting some help this Friday and Saturday, for which I'm super grateful! :kirby_happy:
I hope to ask dad if he can help with the lights this Sunday. I will try some myself the next few days, where I dont need to paint, but I may need his help with some... So let's see how far I can get the next few days...
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Sooooo yeah, slowly adjusting to the new neighborhood, even though exploring it is harder with the bad weather and time stress I have now.
Slowly making progress in the house.
Slowly getting to know the new house better... Soon it will be our home...
I still call the apartment home now, as that's where my bed is, and where we head to when the work is done for the day.
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Fankoos for joining us on this journey! Fanks for catching up with this early morning Pixy talk.
:bear_love: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos ๐ and #NeuroSpicy ๐ถ friends :neuro:
This first week of very small changes of routine is proving to be quite challenging... And we're only on day two... ๐ค
I'm a night owl ๐ฆ. Or a vampire ๐ง๐ปโโ๏ธ... Anyway, I love the peace and calm (and darkness) of the night. The early nighttime walkies were just perfect for me to enjoy... ๐พ
But, the "normal" world works on a different time schedule. And seeing I'll be depending on people who enjoy that bit of "normalcy", I'll have to temporarily adjust. And I know it's a good cause. And I know it's just a few weeks... But I struggle!
This morning we had the second layer night time walkies and it wS already getting light before we got home... The skies were beautiful! But it just felt wrong...
So excuse me for all the grumbling that jllybe sharing the next days. I guess, hope, that when I'm busy with the house, it will feel better due to the positive distractions. ๐ Sorry for repeating myself. Unfortunately, that's how my AuDHD deals with changes like these...
Hopefully, after he main work is done, after we've moved, after the apartment is done and dusted... Arwen and I have found a new lovely SniffBook walk to enjoy. Hopefully we can find a time that will work for me with the new routine I'll be getting. We'll be getting. Hopefully all the changes won't upset Arwen too much... It's bad enough for me to struggle like this...
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So I'm very sorry for the repetitive toots. I'm sorry for the grumbling... I do believe it will be temporary, just as the situation I'm in...
#Journal of a slightly disappointed Dutch Pixy ๐ง๐ผโโ๏ธ (Sunday, June 23rd 2024).
TL;DR usual day, except no walkies with our friends. I tried to balance relaxing with activities, especially as it's only a week till the start of the move... And in the end, I hurt someone by being too blunt, due to feeling a bit disappointed. ๐
I woke a few times during the night for the loo. When I woke about 20 minutes before the alarm, I just got up. The scale was OK enough, but not as good as a few days ago. It was 12ยฐC and dry, so that was a good thing. My sleep score was a bit lower, only 84 this time, probably due to me being awake a few times. I got dressed and took my meds. Prepared Arwen's food and we went out for walkies. I fixed her food, put out the snacks, and grabbed my bag. Hey ho, let's go!
I enjoyed my protein drink while browsing Masto. My dear friend went to bed, so it was just Masto and me for a while. I got to the treadmill and walked while I wrote my journal Toot (as I'm doing now as well ๐). After the mill, I went to the seated bike for my usual ride. I got a massage in the chair, it worked this time, yay, and then I switched shoes to head back home.
A quick wash up and brekky. Arwen and I went for SniffBook walkies and we had a lovely walk. I chatted with a very dear friend and I worked a bit on my blog and on editing AI images. It was a lovely walk and we enjoyed it a lot. When we got back, I got to the PC and worked on my blog some more. I decided to edit some CW (content warning) posts on Pixelfed. I had not thought of all the notifications it would mean for everyone who had engaged with these posts! So whoops! ๐ซฃ Another apology Toot for all the disruptions! Then, Arwen wanted to head out for the splash walkies. So... We went.
The weather was very nice, it was even slowly getting a bit warmer. Arwen had more sniffs and if course some swims as well. I wrote some for Masto and my blog, while Arwen enjoyed the sniffs and wets. When we got back, I made myself some food and then I took a shower.
I made a small list of things I would need to bring to the house with me next week. Will see what I can fit into Skoosh, and other things I wrote down for the next day and all. I know what I should need, but knowing my brain, it's good to check, just in case.
I walked with Arwen and we ran into a chatty neighbor, so the walk was a bit longer than planned... ๐ Fixed food for Arwen after that. Rode my bike for a while. As the weather was very nice, I decided to finally clean some bits of Skoosh that needed to be done by hand. Just a simple wipe, but it looked better when I was done. ๐
I tried to relax some while browsing Masto. A very sweet friend had seen one of my toots and just left a short reply. And I felt disappointed, as I had hoped for some feedback from them on that. I really value their opinion, so was bummed when there cMe none. And in that disappointment, I reacted badly, ending up hurting the friend. Which I didn't know until after my sleeps, so now I feel very guilty about my bad behavior. ๐ Fueled by disappointment and my bad social skills... ๐ข
I got ready for bed half an hour later than usual, which felt very weird... But I need to adjust to more "normal" time schedules for the next month, so it's best to gradually adapt to them... I don't like it... But it's necessary and, hopefully, also just temporary. It didn't take me too long to fall asleep.
I woke twice for the loo. And then an ambulance in our street woke me again, about 20 minutes before my alarm. So I just got up and started my routine.
A new week has begun, the last one before I'll be getting the keys! Eeeeek ๐ณ! Hey ho, let's make the best of it!
:bear_love: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos ๐ and #NeuroSpicy ๐ถ friends :neuro:
This will be my last (very) early bed time for several weeks to come. And while I know it's a necessity to get myself into a more "normal" daytime routine, I do struggle with it...
I will definitely miss my nighttime hours. I'll still have a few, but less than I'm used to now. It may sound strange, but those nightly gym visits, the nightly SniffBook walkies... They helped my MH so much! I felt very relaxed, even though I am heading towards a stressful time. Every afternoon, as I was preparing for bed, I already was looking forward to the next SniffBook walk with my sweet gall...
I'll have to go to bed later, to be awake during the "normal" daily hours during the moving period. And I've adapted before, like with vacations and such, but I just know I'll miss it while I can't have it like I'm used to...
I will try to get back towards a more nightly routine after the move is over. After the stress of getting everything done in time has passed... And to be honest.... I can't wait!
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I will admit, I'm a night owl and I love it... For many reasons... And after I've blogged about this a while ago, I learned that some more AuDHD/Autistic/ADHD folks feel the same about the calm of night... ๐ฆ
So last time going to bed early as I do now. I will still go to bed earlier than most, but to me, it will feel late...
Tonightโs quote describes my original copies of โThe Colour of Magicโ & Hitch-hikers Guide to the Galaxy.
โIt looked like the sort of book described in library catalogues as "slightly foxed", although it would be more honest to admit that it looked as though it had been badgered, wolved and possibly beared as well.โ
--(Terry Pratchett, The Light Fantastic)
Thank you to everyone who has tracked me down to the Beige & shared TLs again, you are all truly lovely Peeps.
Hopefully other friends will follow suite over the next few days.
Where ever you are in your day I hope youโre enjoying it! ๐๐ซถ๐ฟ๏ธ๐
:bear_love: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos ๐ and #NeuroSpicy ๐ถ friends :neuro:
We're out for the splash ๐ฆ walkies again. Arwen gets more sniffs in and an occasional water splashing may happen... ๐พ
My mind is still quite busy. It is like it's wilder than usual, even though they did slightly up my #ADHD meds last week... Maybe I need to get adjusted to the new dosage?
While my mind is going fast, I do find that I can take some more moments to relax. As the move is coming closer, and more things are being crossed off the list, I can sometimes feel a wee bit at ease...
Until the anxiety kicks in again with all the worries that it's been stalking me with. As is moving to a new town wasn't hectic enough, let's throw in a dosage of #AuDHD to make it even more interesting/challenging.
But I've made it through all that life has thrown at me up till now... I admit, I didn't handle it all too well at times, but hey, I made it and I didn't give up!
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So, let's do this! ๐ช๐ผ Day by day, until we made it to August... On July 31st I have to hand in the keys of the apartment and I'll close the door one last time... From that moment, it's hopefully time for me to find a new routine, take things a little easier and continue making my new house a home. (in case you missed it, ๐ I'm getting the keys July 1st at 12:30).
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Fankoos ๐ซถ๐ป for your kindness and support! Your replies, boosts and likea really help to keep me more sane (as far as that's possible haha).
:bear_love: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos ๐ and #NeuroSpicy ๐ถ friends :neuro:
As my brain is all over the place again... I started wondering about emojis. I know, right?!
I've always loved using them. And I stil do!
I thought about the reason and... Maybe I "found" one?
I've always struggled with words and emotions. Saying the right things. Understanding the emotions in written texts. But with the use of the right emojis, I feel like the context is more clear to me, I find it easier to express myself with certain kind of little images. The emojis.
When I make a silly joke, I can add ๐ or ๐คญ.
When I'm glad about something, I often use โบ๏ธ.
When I'm sad, there's ๐, ๐ข and ๐ญ.
Some emojis express other feelings, so I often add those too.
I feel like I use the emojis to "make sure" the reader can understand my emotions of my written words better.
If that makes sense ๐ค...
And with the beige instance having many cool extra emojis, it's just a little happy place. ๐
I know emojis can be annoying or be seen as childish. But hey, I like them, they help me express myself better.
:bear_love: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos ๐ and #NeuroSpicy ๐ถ friends :neuro:
It's just 11 more days till I get the keys! Two more sleeps and we're in the single digits!!
23 sleeps and then it's time to move all our stuffs...
It feels like just a short while ago that I shared I had been offered a small new house... To think that this happened in December! It really doesn't feel like that much time had passed!
So yeah... I'm still struggling with my emotions. I feel excited, but also scared and anxious. I feel motivated to get the job done and to do it right! ๐ช๐ผ But I fear I may not be up to the task...
It's definitely a roller-coaster of emotions and it gets me all wired up. My #AuDHD brain feels all over the place. And my toots will reflect that... Sorry in advance (again ๐) if I may seem a bit weirder than usual.
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Thanks ever so much for your support ๐ I really appreciate it! And eeeek ๐ฒ just 11 more sleeps...
:bear_love: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos ๐ and #NeuroSpicy ๐ถ friends :neuro:
When I joined this server, I made an #introduction Toot. As I've recently made some new Friendos here, I wanted to write a new intro Toot!
I'm Cynni Pixy, nicknames obviously, and I'm a 44 year old female. Though I don't mind the she/her pronouns, I also accept the they/them ones.
I have a chocolate brown Labrador, who will turn 11 on July 15th. She's the love of my life and has really been my life saver in desperate times in the past.
I'm #AuDHD / #ADHD & #ActuallyAutistic. I struggle with chronic depression, and an binge eating disorder (so fighting the obesity is a daily thing) and I have some physical issues as well
The biggest ones are #Fibromyalgia#Spoonie (who took the spoons and why do my muscles hurt that badly?), hypermobility (I didn't know it could bend that far ๐ค) and I have a (second) new right hip. The one I got at birth wasn't in the best condition.
While my AuDHD presses me to keep active and busy and to do better, my fibro just needs more rest... Finding a balance that works is a daily chore!
I'll be getting the keys to our new small home on July 1st. It's exciting but also anxiety inducing, too many changes all at once! So I'm Tooting loads about that... ๐
I either Toot my fingers off, or I'll just lurk. I struggle with commenting on other people's toots, it's easier to reply to replies to my own toots. If that makes sense.
I'm trying to engage more. I try to boost when I can, but no Alt text means no boost...
:bear_love: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos ๐ and #NeuroSpicy ๐ถ friends :neuro:
I'm up a little early, had to go to th smallest room. And I didn't want to try to sleep for 25 more minutes... So here I am!
Am at the gym, just caught up with the notifications, so I'll get my big behind to the treadmill in a bit...
Just wanted to say hello, or rather, ello ๐
Hope you're all having a good time, which ever time zone and routine you're enjoying!
Alright, best get at it. Will write the journal Toot from the mill. Gotta be smart and multi-task, hihi....
:bear_nuzzle:
Remember to be kind to others but also to yourself. ๐
:bear_love: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos ๐ and #NeuroSpicy ๐ถ friends :neuro:
It's me, again ๐ Hihi...
I was just wondering about something silly (so what else is new? Right?).
When people start following me, I always check out their profile. I don't always follow back, I'll be honest in that. No bio, only Tooting in a language I don't understand, or only Tooting things that I have no interest in... I won't follow back.
I've always been honest about that.
Limited spoons means, for me, that I can't translate all toots. Or that I can't scroll though a while time line, looking for a Toot that does interest me...
If that makes sense ๐ค
But it's easier for me to follow someone back (if they "meet my requirements" ๐) than to start following someone first...
I know, I told you that it was silly!
If I see someone Tooting things I like a lot, it's easier to like the toots than to follow the person... It feels like a bigger step to click the "follow" button than to star the Toot.
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So yeah... Just something silly that I noticed while scrolling though the time line...
:bear_love: Ello sweet and lovely Friendos ๐ and #NeuroSpicy ๐ถ friends :neuro:
I did something a few days ago that I've been telling myself again and again "I should just do it". Nope, nothing exciting, nothing drastic, it's actually a very simple and even a silly thing...
I've always loved the band Roxette. I made several big playlists on Spotify with their songs and all... But often, I wanted to skip to the songs I love that haven't been hits/singles. I wanted to hear the other songs...
So I kept saying that I should just make a private playlist and add the lesser known songs that I love... It's a simple thing to do! But somehow... I kept thinking that I should do it...
So I've finally done it and... Been listening to it again and again... ๐ถ Silly me...
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Ah well... The simple things in life sometimes are silly hard to "just" do I guess... ๐
#Journal of a slightly busy Dutch Pixy ๐ง๐ผโโ๏ธ (Tuesday, June 18th 2024).
TL;DR kinda usual start of the day. But instead of walking with our friends, we went to Nijmegen to take mum to the hospital. Had a good day, which was nice.
Woke twice during the night for the loo and then when my alarm woke me. I got to the scales and they were a wee bit nicer to me, which was good to see. It was 12ยฐC and dry at the moment, so that was good. My sleep score was 95, so not bad at all. I got dressed, took my meds, prepped Arwen's food and we went out for walkies. She did her things and then we got back. I made her food, put the snacks in the right places and then grabbed my bag. On my way to the gym I went.
I chatted with a very sweet friend and caught up with Masto, while I enjoyed my protein drink. Then I got to the treadmill, followed by the bike. I felt too tired to do more than the usual, but seeing I would have a busy day, I didn't mind too much. I got my ten minutes massage and then switched shoes before heading home.
A quick wash up and change of clothes. The weather apps said it should be dry for now, so so after the brekky, Arwen and I headed for the SniffBook walkies. I let Arwen a bit more off leash, which we both enjoyed. She had more to sniff (only where it was safe for her, mind you) and my hands were less being pulled this way and that (so I could use my phone more haha ๐ gotta entertain myself when my queen gets her sniffs in).
When we got back, I got to the PC. Finished the journal blog post that would go live later that day. I uploaded a few pics from the HD to Pixelfed. When I went to the loo, Arwen was telling me she was ready for the splash ๐ฆ walkies. So I checked the weather apps again, as rain would be coming, and then we headed off.
She had loads of good splashes. I decided on the 3km route as she had played so much, I was afraid she'd be too tired for a longer walk. And I feel like I did right, as she got a bit slower as we got closer to home. Then, when we were almost at our street, the spitter spatter started... The rain had come... And boy, it was here to stay! Damn...
I had a bite to eat and then I got my umbrella and bag and headed to the town to pick up the parcel. The shop opened at 8, so I wanted to be there when it did. Of course it rained all the way... And I was too early, but there was a dry spot where I could wait. I got the little box, and walked back home again.
I got my things ready and we quickly headed to Skoosh. We usually drive to Nijmegen around 7. Now it was 8:40 and it was waaaaay more busy on the roads! Wow...
I helped mum with their HBO apps. They were terribly excited about the new House of the Dragon series and then they didn't know they had to update the app, so they could not watch... Ow the horror! So I updated the TV app and the Chromecast app as well, got them logged in so this evening, they could finally start, hihi... Then I took mum to the hospital. We were a bit early, as it was an easy drive and... Free parking! That was nice. We were guided by a very friendly lady and found the department and waiting area without any issues. While we waited, I discussed the fiber with mum. She said if it was a good deal, to go for it. She'd help if needed. Which was very sweet, so while we sat there, I arranged my fiber connection for the new place. Another thing off the big list! ๐
Mum had her appointment and it all went well. It wasn't as bad as she might have thought, although she didn't say, I did see some relief. Also some annoyance, as there was no "simple" solution to her issue... Which is also understandable... We got back to Skoosh and drove back to Nijmegen.
The dogs really wanted to go out, so we braved the rain and mud and went to the small woods with them. Arwen loved it all the way, Bas was it impressed with the rain... He prefers it to be dry ๐. Don't we all Bas, don't we all...? ๐
When we got back, dad asked about HBO and he was very happy that I had already fixed it. ๐ I took Arwen back home and then we ran inside (well, Arwen took her time as she was already wet...). I fixed some food for Arwen anf then for myself. I had been very good with the snacks so I was rather happy with that. After food, I rode the bike a bit while watching Lord of the Rings. Just the normal version on stream, as my extended ones are in a box somewhere ๐.
I got things ready for the next day. Took meds, brushed teeth, braved the rain again... Dried Arwen best I could and then got my eReader and tried to sleep. My muscles were a bit sore, my right leg had bothered me throughout the morning, and it took a while to fall asleep.
I woke twice for the loo and I heard the rain falling and falling. When my alarm woke me, I still heard it. I got to the scales, which were a bit kinder this morning. I got dressed, did all the usual bits and we went out for short walkies. And it was dry! Trees were dripping, but it was dry for now. Yay for that...
On to the gym, starting the humpday well! Have a great day ๐ธ everyone!
Ok back from seeing yon Dr about ASD dx letter, much better than last time!
Short version (long version will be in tonightโs diary) is that ThunderSquirrels are GO !
Iโm really quite chuffed. ๐
Gonna go get a coffee (seems that coffee is the beverage of choice now. ) sort out the ADHD forms , then Iโll get back on here & catch up with you lovely Peeps !
Random question for anyone interested, has anyone read or heard about the hunter-gatherer theory regarding ADHD traits? Recently stumbled upon it and read some into it and it's rather pretty interesting.
Hi! My name is Erin. My pronouns are they/them. I am a #neurospicy#trans#femby nerd. I love #science & #tech, and while I do post about those topics occasionally, I mostly use the #fediverse as a place to share experiences, funny #memes, lewdness (with CW ofc), or general shouts into the void.
Also, I am a lurker by heart, and I don't post often, but I am a prolific booster, so there's rarely a time that my feed is inactive.
Anyway, hope you send a follow request, and I'll see you around! โ:neofox_heart: