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Cottagecore mountain witch, steampunk elf, aerial circus gremlin. Chaos fae with a glass studio and a wood shop and a yarn stash. Regex tech nerd with a camera, three feline nutballs, a fabulous partner, and a perfect kid. Transfemme punk enby giving a middle finger to the gender binary while cooking dinner. Tired GenX wilderness wanderer. Musical tastes lodged firmly in the genre of "everything." SF Bay Area traincation backpacker. My Doctor is 13, my library is the Otherwise Award long list.

Too femme to be masc, to butch to be femme, to quiet to be butch, too queer to be quiet.

Follow requests turned on to weed out spam. I might or might not follow back, just have to keep my reading lists under control, but I love my queertrans peeps.

pfp: picrew me, transfem wearing a tank top, black cap, and a mask
header: sunset on the Sierras, solo backpack trip, 2023

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18+ alice , to random
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I wanted to make a fun breakfast for today, so...

Pumpkin pie French toast with garden berries and a sunny-side-up egg. Topped with whipped cream and rainbow sprinkles.

Six pieces of French toast cooking.
All the ingredients for my French toast.

storybead ,
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@alice oh my heavens that looks delish!

rooster , to random

It seems to be a common misconception that a lot of radiation is a major effect of fission and not fusion.

Fusion is just the power of the sun right? Just remember that what we call sun burn is actually a radiation burn.

storybead ,
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@caroline I am somehow utterly unsurprised that you have on-demand questionable limericks in your talent repertoire.

@Tim_Eagon @macberg @rooster

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    storybead ,
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    @alice I didn’t loudly and proudly claim trans, though I did claim nonbinary and said sure that’s technically under the trans flag, until sometime last fall. Even though I wore trans pride jewelry, had been on HRT for a couple of years… Because some part of my brain didn’t feel trans enough. That part was wrong, of course, I’m plenty trans. But also, if someone doesn’t feel like they want to claim the T, that’s fine. People claim it when they’re ready.

    alice , (edited ) to random
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    "Hey, totally unrelated, and if this is too personal then please just ignore me, lol. What exactly was your experience like, figuring out that you're nonbinary, and roughly when did that happen?
    " —Someone I know on Matrix

    I responded in chat, but figured my answers might be of broader interest to people who are enby(or Alice)-curious 😋 So here it goes...

    ⚠️ CW for some slurs and gender stereotyping ⚠️

    The short of it is that a couple years ago my kid expressed to me that they weren't sure if they were their assigned gender. To be supportive, I started learning everything I could about being trans. Eventually, they decided that they were okay with their birth gender (at least for now, and maybe forever), but I realized I wasn't okay with mine.

    I've always been :_gaysparkle: queer™ :_gaysparkle:, and I've always sort of skirted gender norms (leaning more heavily one way or another as I grew up), but I was raised in a time (the 80s/90s) and environment (latchkey kid with no [living] LGBT+ family members) where transgender people weren't really "a thing". There were "cross-dressers", and "trannies", and several other slurs, but it all got reduced to a "fetish" or "sickness" at the end.

    I didn't feel like I had any sort of (relevant) fetish, and I didn't think I was sick, so it must be "something else".

    Basically, I didn't have the vocabulary to express that I was nonbinary, or to know it was even an option not to be my assigned gender.

    But don't get me wrong, I've never identified particularly strongly with either extreme of traditional gender presentation. Looking back through the lens of what I know now, there were a lot of things I was dysphoric about (and several that still get to me), but at the time I just thought I was weird or that everyone else felt the same and no one mentioned it.

    So I didn't mention it either.

    Now that I'm older, better informed, and give even fewer fucks what other people think about how I express myself, it's surprising to me that it took so long to figure things out.

    So unlike some trans people who strongly associated with their non-assigned gender from an early age, and some nonbinary folk who collect genders like Pokémon, I'm the kind of enby who just gives a lot less importance to which gender I take my influences from—as long as I like the aesthetic or it makes me feel more "me", then we're all good.

    So I think I'm probably somewhere around a...um, Alice(?) when it comes to my gender expression 🙃

    It's still a work in progress, but as it stands now:

    • I hardly wear makeup 💄 (except nail polish 💅🏻)
    • Most of my clothes are marketed as being for women, but are pretty unisex —save for my cute socks and underwear 🧦👙
    • I like pinks and purples...a lot 💜
    • I like having muscle definition 💪🏻
    • I can't stand body hair 🪒
    • I like my tits, but I'm glad they're small 🧁🧁
    • I've had short hair for most of my adult life, but I'm having fun growing it out again like when I was a kid 👩🏻‍🦲👩🏻‍🦰
    • I dislike most sports, except of course for locksport 🔓 and Bloodsport (1998) 🩸

    It feels super-awkward listing off all the stereotypically gendered things about me that I can think of. The idea of a color or a haircut being "for boys" or "for girls" just seems weirdly restrictive and arbitrary.

    If you made it this far, neat! You get a cookie 🍪

    If you have any questions, feel free to ask me anything.

    If you have any comments or relevant experiences, please share.

    Thanks for reading 💕

    storybead ,
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    @alice eerily similar to my experiences...

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