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skymtf

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skymtf ,

I have not read the news in a really long time just cause paywalls are annoying as frick.

Realizations about my transition and just feeling hopeless

I think part of my hopelessness is that I am realizing hrt has not done anything to my face, I figured this out since I am still pretty recognizable. the only thing hrt has done for me is give me boobs, which usually results in hey dead name, you should loose some weight when i am recognized in public. I just feel hopeless and I...

skymtf OP ,

Credit Card

skymtf OP ,

What the debt collector gonna do, send notices to my grave LMFAO

skymtf OP ,

There nothing, theirs nothing. I have nothing I'm looking forward to

skymtf OP ,

Eventually I won't be able too either.

skymtf OP ,

Yesterday sucked, last week sucked, last month sucked, last year sucked, the last decade sucked. Nothing in my life has ever worked out.

skymtf OP ,

At the end of the day I'm really small, there are billions of other people, no one will notice me gone in the grand scheme of things.

skymtf OP ,

So what your saying is don't bet on a single solution, so like take pills too?

skymtf OP ,

I feel like the odds of things getting better are the same as if I bought a lottery ticket and won. Statistically speaking things will continue to get worse.

skymtf OP ,

Everyday I keep going worse shit happens, today I was yelled at by a cop for walking around. He nearly assaulted me. Shit doesn't get any better once so ever.

skymtf OP ,

I'm on HRT (hasn't worked) cause I'm genetically cursed. And my crowd can say some right things, I'm a leftist. But let's not bring politics into this cause it really doesn't matter in grand scheme of things, and no I can't figure out a plan, I don't even got another place to go. And what your saying doesn't apply, I've never really been consistently happy, my life is mostly bad.

skymtf OP ,

I planning on leaving and commiting alone, an automatic 911 call will be placed which will give them the location of my body.

skymtf OP ,

Blaming HRT on someone being suicidal isn't science, that's not even fucking proven. Jesus Christ. Just cause it didn't help me doesn't mean it didn't help countless others fuck

skymtf OP ,

I have nothing, no one will make me feel warm and safe and help me. That's the truth. I'm alone.

skymtf OP ,

They deal with death everyday, it comes with the job. And also for the cops are fuck heads that harass black people and ruin people lives, they deserve to see a dead fucking body

skymtf OP ,

When I was being abused by my dad, adults told me hey you'll be 18 one day. I'm an adult now, and fuck things actually got worse

skymtf OP ,

Generally my idea would be to take the pills than shoot myself afterwards, mainly the goal would be making me a hard case for paramedics, unable to figure out what to treat first.

skymtf OP ,

Likely a heart monitor plugged into a python script would work. Than have some basic tts read "Hello, this an automated voice message, Skylar is now deceased, heart rate was recorded flat at {{time}} the location is {{location}}" ideally I'm gonna pick a parking garage which isn't active the day I'm planning on ending it.

skymtf OP ,

it's not that anyone cares about me that much, but rather that no one should be forced to experience that. 911 operators have training in dealing with death.

I feel like all fedi software has problematic devs, Calckey

I feel like almost every single piece of software has some problematic dev that has racism, transphobia, or both. I recently read a post about the calc key devs and sighed *facepalm. It is honestly really annoying cause I want friends to use Fedi but than you can pull up a whole laundry list of problems with the devs and it's...

skymtf OP ,

I will be honest, I feel like all foss software has these issues, I use linux and there are so many devs I cannot really say who is who obviously, I just feel like for a ton of people expressly People of color it might be important to use software that isn't against your interest.

skymtf ,

I use simple SMS anyway, I honestly would love to see a modern dailer for degoogled android. I wonder if we could get the little verified caller checkmarks on a Foss dailer app

skymtf ,

I wish there was an app liked newpipe for tiktok ugh maybe one day

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