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Saren42

@Saren42@infosec.exchange

Mid-30's, furry, trans, pan, polyam, metal head, gamer, love to work on my cars and trucks. Currently trying to make a career change into infosec, from a life of industrial equipment maintenance, currently stuck in the trap of unemployment.

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jerry , to random
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I just saw a commercial advertising “Freelance AI experts on Fivver”

video/mp4

Saren42 ,
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@jerry they'll change it to Benjamin. Lol

Saren42 , to random
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Ya know, I appreciate the Friday night zoom call I get to hangout in and with people every week, but... I don't really understand how/why they put up with my ass at all. I just feel like a leech of a hanger on, I have a hard time feeling like I truly fit in, since it's largely a group of successful folks, that are successful in a variety of aspects, be it personally, creatively, career wise, or just... any combination of those.

While I'm just someone that pretty much fails at everything I do or try, and just cannot succeed at anything. I hate that I'm getting exceptionally more of a what feels like a drain on those around me in life, be it my wife IRL, these folks in this zoom call, or just my other non-local partner. I certainly feel like I've burned up too much good will with everyone in my life, and just waiting for people to just reject me completely and stop tolerating me in their spaces.

This post isn't because I know folks I know are going to see this, in fact, if I could keep them from seeing it, I would, it's just my posting into the void, because I'm just really not doing great, and I have no idea what to do about these feelings and how I'm doing.

Saren42 OP ,
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@jerry Thanks, I appreciate that. Truth be told, I wish I understood what all I was dealing with and going through. It's just always one struggle after another, and the struggles are piling up so damn high.

But it really just comes down to, being just completely unable to find and get a job, even something at simple as going back to trying to work at a local grocery store, can't even get a call back and an interview.

Saren42 OP ,
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@jerry Oh, this is purely just life shitting on me type situation. And I've largely been fine for a while, but stuff has just finally started piling up too high for me to be able to support it. Also, I can't do that, because a long shot fall back I'm trying to do, trying to seek out that help, would prevent me from being able to do that at this point in time.

Saren42 OP ,
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@jerry As of yet, the only smile I'm seeing the universe show me, is it's permanent vertical smile, lol.

slyflourish , to random
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tip: Don't depend on digital tools for your happiness with your favorite RPG.

Saren42 ,
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@slyflourish my uncle does this, and he's been playing dnd since 1st ed. But the software he relies on, is Mac only, PPC Mac at that. Has not been updated since then, and has major issues trying to keep it working.

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