Ok, so I get that marketing is kinda totally evil and causes moral injury. Have you looked into:
UX
Product design
Editorial Design
Environmental design
Illustration
non-profit, educational, public sector\government
I realize that the market is shit right now, but use all your advantages to get what you need.
After looking for a really long time (3yr) but only halfheartedly, I landed a job last august. One of the biggest things that helped were really luck (which you can enhance through repetition and effort) and some cleverness.
Using GPT to assist with organizing and formatting my resume, as well as crafting cover letters, proved to be highly effective for me. Theoretically, this approach is ideal for navigating the applicant tracking systems that employers use, enhancing your chances of getting hired. GPT excels at incorporating relevant buzzwords and operates as an "average-ifying engine." When it comes to resumes and cover letters, this capability is invaluable, as it optimizes your documents to align closely with what hiring algorithms and recruiters typically look for.
also, I used GPT to make the garbage I wrote in that previous paragraph more readable (full disclosure)
Also, it can, as I did up there, act as an editor, speeding up your process SIGNIFICANTLY. If you have to apply to 100 jobs, I think some shortcuts are in order.
I hope this helps. Feel free to DM me of you need someone to bounce ideas off of :) I promise I won't just dump your message into GPT and use it to respond to you.
As for the ward... I have a lot more experience with that than I'd prefer. It's good to stay out, but make sure you have enough support. I've learned that just putting everything you don't want to think about on a shelf in the back of your mind is... poison.