Sorry, I am an atheist and a skeptic, so I’m afraid that is not something I personally buy into (I am not judging you for it, everyone needs to decide this sort of thing for themselves as far as I’m concerned).
Yeah, I get that, and I don't want to be an obnoxious walk-from-door-to-door guy. I'm just telling you about my own observations.
I was in a pretty similar situation than you are in right now. I get the pretty strong feeling that there are parallels. I was an atheist myself when I was younger, but my own, personal observations and contemplations made me change my mind. So it might be something for you, too.
Again, I don't wanna be obnoxious, but I have many things to say, and maybe they would speak to you.