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I miss being a GM for my group...

I’ve been the GM for my friend group and for one year I’ve been the architect giving voice to many places, many characters, a whole world for us to explore. At times my goal was only to instill fears into my players, identify what they were most afraid of loosing and made the threat of it happening looming over their head....

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A screenshot from the Lemmy matrix chat with a guy trying to scam/sell drugs to people — why is it unmoderated lol?

I don’t understand what’s happening in the chat, and people are super salty and not open to discussions so I see what you mean.

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Wow try being nicer I assure you it doesn’t hurt :)

I'm looking for a way to create webpages without HTML, any tips?

Hello! I'll try to explain what I'm looking for: I sometimes have to write simple web pages (not just text, also buttons and video players and so on), but I really really hate writing html code. What I'm used to is QML, which I like a lot, because of the ease of placing objects exactly where I need using the anchors and the...

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Why is there a license at the bottom of you amazing comment?

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I didn’t watch the whole thing… as the amazing J Cole Says « Nothing New Under The Sun »

How do you deal with suicidal thoughts?

I’ve 🐝 bee-n fighting for two years now. I have this « job » that I’ve been stuck with forever now. My inability to enjoy the little things of life is just another indication of my dereliction: hating the bitter man I’m becoming, seeing myself in people I despise, being unable to think, speak, create....

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I love making music, I love coding & contributing to open-source, I love writing/DMing tabletop roleplaying games & stories, I love reading fantasy & philosophy (mainly) books, I love to grow gourmet shrooms, I love meeting interesting people, urban exploration

I love the world and what it has to offer, I can not participate in it… I’m stuck in this shitty situation

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I went to Malawi during 2-weeks for faring in an eco-lodge and I remember that in the contact of new people & nature I felt better than ever, I feel like it’s not my mind but more of the accumulation of shitty stuff everyday.

I’m actually in the situation you lived through, I’m in the french high school system, last year with exams. School has always been hard for me, fighting my mind, being harassed, I’ve come to hate it, I’d be better off on wikipedia learning stuff by myself.

But everyday I’m forced to go to experience the shallowness of people, teachers & educators. I have no energy to do anything but… consume content on my phone to not think about my shitty situation.

And right now, I’m so fed up this existence of student, trapped in the petulent academic system that I can even focus anymore. I can’t think, I can’t write, I can’t remember.

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I’m in the french high school system which are very long working days (which is normal) on uninteresting things with teachers that hate teaching, and classmates with endearing stories but questionable sex lives of which they talk way too much.

In all this shallowness, I have no energy when I get back at home, after doing my shitty math homework, to even boot up my laptop to work on my coding project.

It’s constantly fighting your mind that tells you that there’s more to life, that you should not waste your time with such a poor experience.

But you don’t have self-determination, you just have the responsibilities of going there, putting down a smile, and get fingered for good grades to go to a shitty engineering school teaching Java from 2008 and then work at a shit ass computing job where you’re the genius computer guy installing Adobe Reader on everyone’s PC.

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Buy a tiny house, put all my music stuff in it, invite some friends and make some synthwave.

Then, boot up Linux, contribute to open-source and reach the highest level of masteries of the C programming language arcanes.

At night, buy good groceries from the store to make super good food and then DM my roleplaying game campaign for my friends and go to bed after a full filling day of meaningful work.

Then try to visit the world, meet people, make friends, talk do stuff and repeat.

I want to work, but work on meaningful stuff.

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I’m doing a special version of my baccalauréat where I do both the French exam, and the A Levels

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I think I’m gonna become a weed farmer then. Better life, better mindset and the music will sound fire.

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Meth is still meth lol no just kidding sorry

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Please narrate lol! Your life is cool, maybe you can give a few anecdotes here and there :((( I don’t understand why people think they’re not interesting

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What are the benefits of Windows server against super snappy Linux servers managed with docker or just an instance on a cloud provider?

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EDIT: Listening to Everywhere at the End of Time by The Caretaker didn’t help lol but I don’t know, it was so gripping I couldn’t stop listening… it was like looking in the abyss… and feeling like loosing yourself. I want to make some music like that.

My mind has been conjuring the worse nightmare and sad shits I thought I could imagine. To fight this I decided to release some of my music. There aren’t much people that listened to it (30!!) but the good comments help me get through the last days.

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Solidworks, Matlab is not exactly what you call CHAD open-source tech as opposed to Python where you can get shit done with it.

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I feel like I’m the only person in this room feeling like it’s kinda dystopian! Do you really want to see those devices become the norm?

With the father filming his children and all that shit we saw in the ad? Let’s live in the present, not through the camera of a device made by mega-corporation.

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As a developer I’m so excited that’s true, but that’s ridiculous the way they portray it as a normal thing to wear it in public lol it’s so eerie

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When he watches memories of his children instead of being in the moment and playing with them lol

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If you found it interesting and enriching to do that’s the most important shit. You have the opportunity to research a subject you like now I guess at least

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I’m on the same distro !! Trying to make EVERYTHING perfect

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This could really be an amazing project! I’ll see what I can do!

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Added to the list ! That’s such a clever way of tracking law history !

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Why not use F-Droid?

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Oh sorry I’m dumb. You could copy the NFC chip of your bank card on an open-source app on your phone. Maybe it would do the job?

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I looked at how to do that it is not that easy… the banking system is so closed :(

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Maybe you want to do that in collaboration?

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Just for the sake of a beautiful audited and blazingly fast codebase that tuns qo good that Raspberry Pi user can run your stuff too.

I love optimisation!

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Alyaza what have been your favorite/most interesting book among the four?

Friends of Beehaw, what are some amazing, insightful, funny, thoughtful books you’ve recently read?

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That looks like an amazing read !

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